Is anyone there for me? Is there anyone who I can trust?

Down from the greatest impact tt happenend to me.I guess the person didnt keep to their promise, there was no waiting at all. I'm filled with hatred and anger.LIke a demon has been unleashed inside me. My whole body is abt to explode. I've lost my will to carry on schooling. I felt confused and scared. I've nvr acted like this b4. its a total mixture of anger and sadness. ! moment i might be shouting out and the next, crying away. My happiness has been destroyed by a certain somebody and its replaced by depression. I knew it, I knew it all along. God was giving me signs tt it would happen and I know now tt I am no longer loved. My leg aches, my head aches from the hittting of the wall. I found out tt I have three Bukit Timahs when I got hm. but the HEART aches the most.......it cries and screams out to me every time I think abt it. And I know tt it was no accident. for it was all laughter and happiness for them. I give up, I can nvr forgive anyone who does tt, knowing tt I would blow. The scene haunts me every second causing me to look like an idiot. People around me kept staring cos I would be wailing 1 moment and shaking my head the next. My anger cannot be expressed by words or actions. Its is too much to be expressed. Its a dynamite in me ready to go off anytime. I'm sure many people saw the second stage of me tdy. I have nvr felt so much anger before. I felt so scared right now. I pray tt god will take my life in my sleep tonight.
Many thx to Fird, Acap, Ghaf, Ran and to all those who were there to comfort me.

One love, Dont break it. I have no more tears to spare.