4th Monthsary

Its the 28th already, I guess I wont be able to post later in the afternoon.
I dont know how we're going tocarry on like tt. but I still love you. I love you, wendy.

Hi! I'm Mr Upset

Erm...where should I start now? K, its like I totally hate school now. I tears me apart tojust say gdbye after everyday.
I know I shouldnt be so sensitive abt all this but its like........Everyday is likea start of something and it just dies off once school ends. + i dont know wad am I too you. Are we tgt? Are we not? Am I even your close friend? Am I even Your good friend? Or am I just your ordinary friend. You say you still love me, but to tell you the truth........I feel so unloved.=(

I dont know wad to do. Everytime I see Ilham and Aj, I feel so lonely. I shouldnt force you to be like tt and I shouldnt force you to do wad I want. but this few days...whenever I try to hold ur hand, You would hold ur textbook or smthing. whenever I try to kiss you, You move away or you turn ur head. You know how much tt hurts me? And you want to know why I look so sad everytime School ends rite?its becos the momentyousay bye, everything ends in tt instance. I'll just have to wait for another day and we'll be happy again and dan you'll say bye and the same routine happens everyday. Dont you find it stupid? Having to do the same thing everyday. Do you know how much I miss you when we seperate after school. I cannot even walk you hm. Whenever I wanna walk you hm, ur mom we'll be at hm. Whenever I dont, Ur mom will not be at hm. its so perfect for me not to walk you hm.

Its so hurting most of the time. I dont know what to do. I hope I'll find an answer at cg later.

Tdy oso very boring, i wished i stayed in sch all along. sigh.... wasted.

Past few pictures tt i have not posted up for very long. I'm kinda screwed up in life now...

Tdy so 2pid. very ps leh. I lost to a gayness.......dont wanna elaborate on it. Its super duper embarrassing. + i very sleepy. nvr eat my bloody lunch. NExt time i shall eat b4 a run. watchout! clement will be back for the cross- country.
+++I love wendy alot. and thx for sticking with me the whole day. I love to hold ur hand.=)

Tdy hor.... idk wad to say lah. i nvr complete a lot of hmwrk. luckily, got a lot lessons no teacher, it was so fun.
+ i didnt know why my bag felt so light tdy until physics class cos i nvr bring my wkbk. and .....miss tan nvr ask me stand up or wadsoever. dan A maths class oso very fun but hor.....got somebody nvr wait for me.=(
I felt so sad.

After recessgot 2period of chinese. dan BLAH BLAH BLAH, i'm lazy to elaborate. dan got physics test, it was damn difficult. I dont think i can get full marks anymore. +++ my answer for the last question is 3.26s but the answer is actually 3.25s. its like sooooooo close lor. wasted leh.
+++the worst thing is the person nvr wait for me again. I felt so lonely lor, I nvr even got to say bye to her.
and rite.....I'm missing her right now.=(

Tdy came sch with a bag of chips and a bottle of ribena cos.............its ToTal Defence day!. dan rite.....some china product was missing today, i guess it got mixed up at the immigrance.

andhor apparently one of my best friends wanted to give a toblerone to someppl or smthing, smthing. its kind off a weird time to be giving rite now smmore. but in the end, he nvr give.

After sch, P.E went to eat at banquet. dan must pass tt fren alot of advise cos now isntthe rite time to get this kind off things yet. There just aint time to do this. and so....tts tt. yea.Nothing much to type today cos it was kinda boooring. There was nothing tt a could smile abt so......PEACE OUT!

Valentines Day

I love my favourite! She's everything to me...
I tot We'll nvr ever get to celebrate tgt. But yes! We did clebrate tdy, even though its like we nvr went out. Just spending time with you makes me sooooooooooo happy!!!! You know tt i was sad when You had to leave? its like I wish the moment wil nvr end. Even staring into ur eyes makes me fall in love.
Shall be catching up with randolph cos he apparently went out smwhere........


I love you alot! Happy Valentine's Day. I'm into you and no one else would do.

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erm.........................................very sry abt leaving you at the stairs. Its wasnt fair to pangseh you like tt. Even though I still havent forgiven you, its like kinda bad to juz leave you like tt. I feel really bad abt it.........
The reason why I wont tell you is cos...........I dont think you'll change so its better to just............
I actually still dont feel like talking to you tdy but you were so persistent. sigh.........
hopefully tmr will be a better day..........

100th post

Sigh.......
I hate the situation right now. I dont know whether to start anew or just forget everything and carry on with life. Ytd, I was all focus on forgetting it all. but tdy...... a new option came up.
Now I'm left to choose between this 2. but forgetting all is still what I want to do right now.
Even though the letter seemed very sincere, I find myself not believing everyword u say anymore.
its very weird...its always the opposite.

forgive and FORGET.

After going through a fking lousy day tdy. I went hm to read the bible. And i learn smthing. forgive and FORGET! well, i didnt learn how to forgive. All i learn was to FORGET. its such a gd thing to do. Tdy is personally 1 of my worst days in sch. I shall FORGET it. I shall FORGET everything!!!


Tdy sux. You make me hate coming to school.
You make me hate looking at you.
You make me hate hearing ur voice.
You make me hate being around you.
You know wad? I aint going to buy any 1 of ur craps anymore. BECAUSE.............I dont care anymore. I hate all ur fake promises. I hate all ur lies. I hate the way you go around blaming me for you being so sad. I hate when you say tt 'it' will not ever happen again. I'm tired of all your craps.
You can cry for all you want but you know wad? You can go find other boys to go comfort you.
CLEMENT WONG NEVER EXISTED.

I wont blog my problems. I wont blog my troubles. I'll keep everything all to myself. Sometimes...silence is the best option.

sigh.sigh.sigh. wahdfjhohfdfhfiddifdofdiuffdoui.
this situation sucks. shit. I feel like banging my head on the wall. I shall be doing nothing on 14 february. I wanna sream, I wanna shout.

3 days of sickness

havent go to sch 4 3 days cos got stomach cramp. or tts wad the doctor said. shtshitshit alot!!! somemore all smallsmall 1.'like little dumplings'xD lol. very pain sial.
tmr i shall be going back. back to the place where my horror begins...