today was a happy day!!!! when my wendy came I could already see two panda eyes. Its soooo cute. LOL. no lah, it looked so weird. sry for making you cry somuch. I nvr knew you would cry over me. but ya. tdy was gd. Talked alot to her and i enjoyed looking into her beautiful eyes. I love her veryvery much! After sch played bball at back gate with mr ken. It was fun but i think he starting to suspect abt the girlfriend thing. well, it was still fun.
I spent 3hours to do the finance report. hoping tt they like it. its like i'm so proud of it lor. yileong nvr state alot things clearly for the food report so i had to estimate alot things. sian, tmr canot go parade dan canot attend drill stg2. its super fun leh since now got thengong.

Tmr i shall be going to idk where on earth. I'll definitely miss wendy koh alot. shes like the person tt determines my mood. I love her alot.=)

28/01/09. Wendy, I love you.
Today is... ah nvm.

Why? I ask myself, why do you wait so long. It doesnt take 40mins to walk to 7/11 and coming back to sch. I waited. I waited. 40 mins b4 you went to change. nvm, you wont understand. another 28th went down the drain. I guess I'll have to eat the kitkat myself.

And randolph, I'm sry for teasing you again abt ... but do you have to be so petty abt it? Ya, I did say tt I'll try to stop but its once in a while. But sry anyway.

srysrysry. wendy koh! i'm very sorry. I promise to treat you better. Once again, I'm sorry. And I ......Love You. Muack.

2nd parade

Tdy was a gd day.=) woke up 5am to polish(actualli i couldnt sleep). After polishing everything, 7.30 liao. Took the bus and reach sch early cos i tot i was duty personal, actually is the circular wrong. Crap!
Parade was alrite, had drill lesson. after parade was the funfun part. Walked with ran to sp cos its our routine now. dan hengkai come along and mention her name. Marcus so big mouth lor. nvm, dan we go mac and guess wad? owe me $4 was there!!! dan eat finish liao chitchat dan went to play bball.
Dan aftertt left with elvis and fabian to do the night games planning, it was very funny+ fun.
go hm dan went out to eat dinner with family. Finally at hm after so long.

Ty to michelle wong for being there. jiayou with the rejection hor!!!xD
Thx to randolph too.
Idk wad to say, Idk wad to do. Idk anything.BAH!!! I'm not being myself.
Theres no reason to miss me, you're better off not knowing that i exist at all.

Why?why do you have to do this to me. You affect my mood. I still got a bloody budget report to do. now i cant do it cos i upset and all. Damn. i got no more mood to do anything. forget it, tlking to you always breaks my heart, its better to ............ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Dont show tt sad face cos i wont buy it anymore. tlking or nt tlking to me wont make a difference for you anyway. it only kills me inside. sry does not make the pain go away. dont be like tt does not make the pain go away. nothing makes the pain go away.
I hate how much I love you. Its very painful.
You say you love me but you dont. I dont feel loved at all. All I feel is pain. I wish you knew how I feel. I wish you know how much you mean to me. tts why i get so disappointed when you make me upset.


Michelle Wong, thx for cheering me upupup!!!!You ROCK sis!!!

I'm missing you so much! I only got three words for you.....I love you!!!

I'm not angry, I'm not mad. I'm juz disappointed. sigh... I'll juz have too continue this wait for you. Its tearing my heart apart but I'll keep on waiting. I love you and you only.

walkathon

Tdy wokeupearlyfor walkathon. had fun, wen to smb park. after tt, it was all unpleasant.
Dont wanna tlk abt it.

I'm disappointed again. It sux to go to sch.after waiting so long, sigh...........i dont wanna tlk abt.

I juz wanna say sry to ms rita for showing such a fking attitude. shitlah, i got an attitude problem.


Since you dont want me interfering in ur life i shall not. WE R NOT RELATED ANYMORE! I hate you!I hate you!I hate you! You're always like tt, nvr apreciating thingstt I do. I'm fking angry now. some1 better giveme a punching bag. very what lor, as if your mother will suspect you for going sch early. I really feel so damn mad at you rite now. next time, get a better bf tt has enough patience to take all this crap. I cant take it anymore, all my patience has been used up.

BB Day

Tdy i went sch very ealryearly in the morning cos got bbday. reporting time 6.30. but cos i live so bloody far away from sch so i woke up at 4.30am. smmore i ytd slept at 1am. dan wake up so super sleepy.
dan got the parade, weihao actually command not bad. so the parade was kinda okok. after recess the elite 4 keep on making fun of us cos we muz stand in senangdiri position+ cannot sit down
skipskip skip to the end of the day...after sch finish, went to eat kfc with ghaf and binli dan we went popular. It was fun. thx to ghaf and binli for keepingme company.and thx to binli for hisvouchers. I still want buy cd!!!!
after tt i going hm saw 44th coy dominic and another guy( cant rmb his name). they so shuai! and so talltall liao. dan going hm in 882 bus saw pohwith her malayboy and huiyuwith the weibin go smb park. they all so free, as if like no hmwork like tt.so lucky lor.

wendy, its not tt i hate you or what. I just feel tt not talking to you will be a better option. like tt no 1 will feel awkward.
I still love you and i love you only.

Break my heart. Here it is, break it again.

Craig david

Insomnia

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush

Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up

When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time, you'll change your mind

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more

Oh i stay up til you're next to me

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love

You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust

And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us

But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep

Cause it feels like I've fallen for you

It's getting way too deep

And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

HELP ME!

Tdy is a so-so day. Many thx to ghaf and ran for making my life more merrier. the day was boring except for the pokemon catching. after sch i had fd so after fd i waited for ran. there many things i want to say but their not important.

What tts important is my relationship.
Its sucks. Its in scrambles. Its makes me want to cry.='(
I cant take it any longer. I'm trying, I'm trying my best.
It seems like you dont love me like before. You dont give a damn abt how I feel. You dont give a damn abt me.
I'm hurt, I'm heartbroken. I dont know what to do.
Everywhere I go, I think of you. Anything I do, I think of you.
When I eat, I rmb tt You love to skip meals. When I do my h/w, I think of your msgs popping out from my hp. When I sleep, I rmb tt you always say gd night to me.

Its totally different now. You dont seem to give me a chance to do anything with you. You dont care abt me anymore. I feel like dying now. You keep breaking my heart time after time.
The way you feel abt me is totally opposite from the time at the chalet.I miss holding your hand. I miss looking into your eyes. I miss those hugs. I miss the kiss. I miss those moments. No, I miss every moment when I'm with you. I love you and my heart belongs only to you. I going to die of misery soon. ='(

Tdy i go sch myself,again.=( nvm, dan 1st lesson sit with ran, he so act smart, ppl use forces of attraction, he use intermolecular attraction. LOL, but its always a pleasure tosit with ran. it boosts my performance.chi class as crazy as eva, english classdamn funny. all our question wrong. so we blame binli!!!yeah.

after recess had Emaths and the tiger den. This time the tamil tiger claimed no victims cos everybody bring their tb.she's a total tamil tiger, she has the tiger look,the tiger stare, the tiger claw, the tiger voice and tiger tricks. And if you dont do ur h/w........................ its tiger time!!!!!GRRRRR!!!

dan end of sch, ghaf leave without us. so i walk my wendy hm!=) i'm always happy to be around her. sadly, she didnt want me to walk her hm and i nvr got a hug.=( nvm,i still care for her and i love her alot.
ltr went popular with binli and cs. binli bought a pen,a bendable ruler and a correction tape. i bought two pens. and cs bought.............A CARE BEAR!!!! its was not for himself, it was for a girl.
I have nothing against cs anymore but...its like his so damn fucking stupid!!!! He gives hundreds of girls so many things but wad does he get in return....nothing. nothing at all. it makes him seemlike a total loser. aiya, i shouldnt be commenting abt him but i'm seriously shocked by how many attempts he tries



WENDY KOH! I LOVE YOU!

5th

Tdy is a day. Bloody lousy, bloody boring. But the cavana part with czw and the rest was great. So angry till no mood to eat cake.










My b'day wish : Hope that my relationship with wendy will last forever

1st day of sch 2009

tdy was the 1st day of sch.been looking forward to it. well, it was practically boring. sit in hall listen to raj and raja preach the whole day.+ the hall was bloody humid. after so long dan can go eat recess. ltr went back to classroom to do lots of shity admin. woot! i've got a great form teacher. tt sums up the day!