Anger is building up inside me again. I cant control it. So now I know it wasnt even an accident. Its was intentional. My heart is pounding furiously again, the beast is coming out again. luckily fabian is here. I behaving like an animal again. Why did u do it knowing tt i would change into this. shit, i'm shaking all over. i nid to be leashed up or smthing. can anyone control me?