199th post. tdy was super busy. dont wanna elaborate on the mroning de. we lost badly basically.

very long i havent break le. I always put on a happy front but i've reached my limit. I gotta make things clear, i cant always be the one keeping in all the hurt. isabel pt was fun without all the drama and all. I havin severe migrain now cos of tt.so wtf man, aiya, like just admit it. we wanna go our seperate ways. I'm tired of being view as the bad guy. you wanted to end all mah, now cant i have my life back??????????fuckfuckfuck. you like to be around boys i let you mah. when u were msging cs i nvr ignore him mah. why cant i even msg her. and last time you say they were bad company now who's the one going hm with them and smiling.......fuck. I now let you go out with anyone you want le mah, why cant i get a simple life? going crazy over this lor, i want no more of the lousy past i just want a new life with new ppl in it. you can stick to all the boys you want for all i care. I nvr even anyhow suspect you like ppl le, you always sit with bh i nvr suspect. You talk to cs, i nvr suspect. You laugh with sp, i nvr suspect. You like to hit xy, i nvr suspect. Asmuch as i miss those moments tgt, i dread going back to the wasted life. I'm so used to it already, its almost everyday tt i have to face this. if carry on this shit, i think i can go mental soon. and i mean it.